Sometimes we go so far down we LOSE hope, don’t we? Us Misfits.
Some of us always a quart low in brain chemistry to begin with…then “things” pile up ‘til we find ourselves slippin’ backward in the Hope department.
We try and choose and pray and try harder. And hear the admonitions and the sermons—“Think positive!” and “Stop that stinkin’ thinkin’ “ and “He is the God of all Hope”– and know we are failing.
So we add SHAME to the dark place we are in.
Most of us believers CHOOSE and WANT to live in His will entirely, praise Him perfectly, keep up the “faith, hope and love” that scripture assures us is FOREVER. We do keep trying and trusting and praying and thanking. But we do sometimes lose hope.
Here is something to encourage you as you lay there soaked in tears or going through the motions while dead inside. I am NOT going to tell you to FEEL something you are not able to FEEL. Or DO something you do not have the inner strength to DO. Nope. I am gonna share what the Lord just showed ME. That we are in GOOD COMPANY and ain’t the ONLY ones. KING DAVID, who scripture calls “a man after God’s own heart,” had times like that TOO. And nobody told HIM to DO or FEEL anything. His “low day” sound familiar?–
“My tears have been my food day and night, while they say to me all the day long,
“Where is your God?” Psalm 42:3
Yeah. We know the feeling. Have experienced the shame as others mock us or just don’t “get” us..
David goes on:
“Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.” Ps 42:5
Like David, we lose hope, yet know somewhere deep within the darkness that He really is our salvation and God, even though we FEEL like a black hole of self-pity, fear, anxiety, depression or despair.
By the END of this same song David is beginning to see light:
“Why are you cast down, O my soul, and why are you in turmoil within me? Hope in God; for I shall again praise him, my salvation and my God.” Psalm 42:11
Yeah. We know it, don’t we? It doesn’t dry up the tears or ease the stomach knots or bring a dose of “happy.” But we know He is still there, still loves us, even when we are lost in hopeless turmoil. We know we will praise Him again. When we CAN.
Even Job “lost it” when his sufferings enveloped him:
“I, too, have been assigned months of futility, long and weary nights of misery. Job 7:3
To me, fallen in the pit more than once, this is good news. If God doesn’t criticize David for the “black hole” days, doesn’t label it or give him a pill for it, doesn’t make him go to Cognitive Behavioral Therapy…still calls him a “man after God’s own heart”…??? Gives ME faith He understands and loves us TOO. If He restored poor ol’ Jobs fortunes again, there is hope for ALL of us. And he DID.
This world IS fallen. No picnic. Times DO get impossibly hard, no light, no joy.
But God is still there.
And no matter what the world says about it, He still loves us.
If our hope is in anything BUT God it really IS hopeless. But when He IS really all we have, the “dark night of the soul” has meaning and purpose. Psalm 62:5 “For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.”
Most importantly we are NEVER ALONE in our dark nights:
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18
We know Father God was not disappointed in His holy Son, Jesus, who suffered through His own : “My soul is sorrowful, even unto death…” He was in such agony and prayed God not require the suffering to come. His sweat became like drops of blood falling on the ground. (Mt 26:38; Lk 22:44)
So just know that Jesus went through this too, in the Garden of Gethsemane. He knows what we feel like.
So the BAD NEWS and the GOOD NEWS are forever intertwined in our wounded souls. Takes a lot of TRUST to wait for answers. But His promises are many.
May the God of all hope fill you with Joy and Peace, that you may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.”
Weeping may endure for a night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning.