Older n wiser now, we have that killer 20/20 hindsight.
Know we COULDA finished school instead of partying, picked a better mate, had that baby, eaten better, lost weight, been nicer, taken better care of ___, gone to…Well, a million of them, aren’t there?
We kick ourselves cuz we know we SHOULDA quit drinking earlier, been more careful driving, gone to the doctor sooner, paid the bills on time, …….yeah.
And the odious WOULDA…Woulda done them all better if we hadn’t found a million ways to lick our wounds, many lying ways to “cheer” ourselves. Eat, drink, smoke,”use,” sleep, our way through the dark.
So even when we know the Lord and kneel before Him grateful for His forgiveness, His guidance, part of us knows we missed the mark a million times and feels guilty for it. Inside we wonder, tremble a bit, cry when we could sing, afraid He’s disappointed in us. Cowering in fear we will mess up again and ruin it all.
God is not like that. People can be. God is not.
A favorite blogger sums it up perfectly:
“If you feel like you’re late to the party, just know that we are ALL late to the the party. It’s been going on for 2000 years now, there’s just nothing we can do about it, this is when we were born. Come to the table, bring your stale, brackish, dirty water. Because Jesus is waiting to turn even your murky water into the sweetest wine. The feast must go on.”
John Lewis (“Not for Punks” on wordpress.com or healthy-people-don’t-need-a-doctor.com)
I wish I could take back every day spent watching TV, every night on the town, shopping spree and 99% of what we did in college. Would spend it another way now that I know what I know.
But the Bible doesn’t talk about REGRET when it talks about miracles and new lives and His wisdom. Joy in Heaven when we come to Him, that’s all He talks about. We can FORGET what lies behind, and just press forward to the eternal prize.
Because the party doesn’t start until WE GET THERE! And once it starts, it lasts FOREVER.
….forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead,
I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.